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Real name: ashley
Member Since: 07/01/2005
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Skin: Revival

hi. i'm ashley.

Sorry, but I've out grown this comfy little world to which I was so accustomed. That isn't to say I won't come back eventually, but for now, I'm done here.


I'm on fanfiction.net now, under the pen name xhollywooxheartsx so if you like Gilmore Girls you might want to check it out.



  • He's not sure how this whole thing started, but he is sure that he loves her. And he'd much rather be with her than that hag who fucking hates him. The bitch who only married him for his money. For reasons beyond what he understands she doesn't want to break up his marriage. She said "It just wouldn't be right."

    Categories: Band Centric
    Characters: None
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 2
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 785
    Read Count: 101
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 12/19/2005 - Updated:12/19/2005
  • They didn't find my body until just after dawn.

    You showed up Joel by your side leaning over the edge of the bridge and staring down at the rocks where I had washed up, my body mangled and bruised.

    They say that I jumped... And you just let them believe it.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Violence, Suicide
    Series: None
    Reviews: 9
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 3322
    Read Count: 541
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 12/10/2005 - Updated:12/11/2005
  • The only man I ever loved was a guest at my wedding. Repost. I hope it wasn't as confusing as last time. I tried to answer some of the questions I got.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC, Paul/OFC
    Genres: Angst
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 3
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 3374
    Read Count: 134
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 11/22/2005 - Updated:11/22/2005
  • "Don't fucking touch me Joel! How could you do this to me! In our house! Our bed! With your fucking twin!" I screamed tears forming in the creases of my eyes. I began to shake harder as I saw Benji stand up and pull on his boxers his eyes still glazed with lust. Except the longer he looked at me the more sympathy I saw cross his features. Good, he should be sorry. Twincest invovled too. Mmm... Twincest...

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Joel/OFC
    Genres: Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 6
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1477
    Read Count: 165
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 11/06/2005 - Updated:11/06/2005
  • "Fucking whore." He spits angrily in my face keeping a hold of my neck. He's down on his knees, has face inches away from my own which is practically smashed into the carpet. I feel his foot pressed slightly on my back as he pins me down. "So where were you Alison? You don't think I'm fucking stupid do you? I know you were out some where." My head is beginning to ache as I'm still not getting any air.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Angst, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Abuse, Violence, Drug Use
    Series: None
    Reviews: 279
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 29300
    Read Count: 5588
    Chapters: 17
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    Published: 08/15/2005 - Updated:11/05/2005
  • I learned to ride my bike last weekend. Uncle Joel took me to the park, and he held onto my bike until I told him to let go, just like you would have. I wish you could have been there to see me. Uncle Joel says when he prays he talks to you. Did he tell you about it? Maybe I can visit you in heaven one day?

    Categories: Band Centric
    Characters: None
    Genres: Angst, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Violence, Rape, Self-Harm, Drug Use
    Series: None
    Reviews: 19
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 2144
    Read Count: 122
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 09/02/2005 - Updated:09/02/2005
  • Holly has spent the last 4 years of her life in the Colorado Mental Health Institution, because of Joel Madden. Before she had been sent there her life with Joel was sex, parties, drugs, booze, and her daughter. After one mistake he sent her away. She feels nothing but hate for him. When's she's released into Joel's custody, who refuses to give up on their love, and is forced to relive painful memories including her fathers actions in her past, her spiral into hell, and the fact that she still might love Joel can she deal with it, or will she need another 4 years in the institute?

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Joel/OFC
    Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Abuse, Violence, Underage Sex, Rape, Suicide, Self-Harm
    Series: None
    Reviews: 226
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 59712
    Read Count: 3397
    Chapters: 24
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    Published: 07/03/2005 - Updated:08/23/2005