Real name: Rachel
Member Since: 05/21/2005
Last Login: 04/18/2019 Skin: Lifestyles
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Benji and Angie were the perfect engaged couple. They had a beautiful house, they both had extremely successful careers and they were deeply in love. They had achieved the picture perfect life that would make anyone jealous... but when a year old secret slips out everything falls apart.
This is the playlist telling the story of what happened, where they've been, and where they're going... if they can survive the break up.Published: 09/10/2008 - Updated:09/30/2008 -
I was listening to ‘Never Enough,’ by the Cure and it just reminded me that this story was sitting in some dusty old file on this computer. Joel’s seems happy. He’s adopted a baby with his boyfriend and he’s living the life. Thank god Benji’s always there when he needs him.
Categories: Slash Pairings
Characters: Benji/Joel
Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
Story Type: None
Warnings: None
Series: NonePublished: 08/24/2007 - Updated:06/15/2008 -
And it’s only in my head, after I’ve slipped away into a deep sleep that I can have her…
Reminiscing about the past at the 10 year La Plata High School reunion. Mistakes, regrets, wishes, and reuniting with so many faces he's tried so hard to forget come back in a rush.Published: 04/03/2008 - Updated:04/05/2008 -
“I thought that we were perfect… why couldn’t we be perfect?” I mumbled quietly as I look around the wrecked living room.
And I swear I could hear him whisper “I love you Joely…”
I must be fucking crazy… yeah crazy for him…Categories: Slash Pairings
Characters: Benji/Joel
Genres: Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: None
Series: NonePublished: 10/16/2006 - Updated:12/02/2007 -
Now turn away
Cause I'm awful just to see
Cause my hair's abandoned all my body
Oh, my agony,
know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo
but counting down the days to goCategories: Slash Pairings
Characters: Benji/Joel
Genres: Drama, Religious, Supernatural, Tragedy
Story Type: None
Warnings: Death, Self-Harm
Series: NonePublished: 04/05/2007 - Updated:12/02/2007 -
Joel's relationship with Hilary was just supposed to be a cover for Benji and Joel's relationship. So why is Joel suddenly married to her? And why didn't Benji know about it?
Categories: Slash Pairings
Characters: Benji/Joel
Genres: Angst, Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: Drug Use, Self-Harm, Suicide, Violence
Series: NonePublished: 12/13/2005 - Updated:09/22/2007 -
Love sure, but Benji and Joel had no clue what they had gotten themselves into.
Published: 07/29/2007 - Updated:09/13/2007 -
I touch you once, I touch you twice
I wont let go at any price
I need you now like i needed you then
You always said we'd still be friends someday
If you leave I won't cry
I won't waste a single day
But if you leave, no don't look back
I'll be running the other way
Seven years went under the bridge
Our time was standing still Heaven knows what happens now you've gotta
You've gotta say you will...Categories: Het Pairings
Characters: Benji/OFC
Genres: Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: Drug Use
Series: NonePublished: 11/13/2006 - Updated:06/16/2007 -
Simply about a love triangle that proves that not all love stories end with happily ever after.
Published: 11/28/2006 - Updated:11/28/2006 -
"
You always made fun of religion.
And now… look it's making fun of you.
But in all honesty my dear departed brother…
I’m glad you’re dead."Categories: Slash Pairings
Characters: Benji/Joel
Genres: Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: Death
Series: NonePublished: 11/25/2006 - Updated:11/26/2006 -
You’re what keeps me believing
The world’s not gone dead
Strength in my bones
Put the words in my head
When they pour out to paper
It’s all for you
Cause that’s what you do
That’s what you doCategories: Slash Pairings
Characters: Benji/Joel
Genres: Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: None
Series: NonePublished: 11/22/2006 - Updated:11/23/2006 -
And love, that was truly the prettiest lie that you had ever told me, that you loved me with everything you had. It was never much but now you have everything you've ever wanted and I'm sitting here on life support. I can't even fucking move, I can't talk, can't open my eyes. Can't tell the world what really happened that night. I can't tell everyone what you really did.
Categories: Slash Pairings
Characters: Benji/Joel
Genres: Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: Death, Violence
Series: NonePublished: 08/19/2006 - Updated:08/19/2006 -
I wiped away a few of my tears as I pulled the note out of my pocket. I looked to the sky, hoping to see her face looking down on me among the angry clouds... but like every year I saw nothing but the rain pelting the earth.
Published: 11/05/2005 - Updated:11/05/2005 -
I breathed in the cold air, closing my eyes and drifting to the back of my mind once again. I struggled to sit up and lean against the wall, but I fail miserably. I jerk back to the real world’s reality as I tried to get comfortable, but the confines that I was forced to be in kept me from any comfort. As well as cause tons of itches that can’t be scratched.
Categories: Band Centric
Characters: None
Genres: Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: Abuse, Violence
Series: NonePublished: 07/27/2005 - Updated:09/04/2005 -
I spend more time with his fucking band mates on a 3 month tour than I have with him in my entire life. Always I just wanted daddy’s attention, to be daddy’s little girl. But I never was. He hated me.
Categories: Band Centric
Characters: None
Genres: Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: Abuse, Self-Harm
Series: NonePublished: 08/21/2005 - Updated:08/30/2005 -
I'm only 13 and I've been through more than most people go throgh in their entire lives. I can' t do anything right. And no one calls me by my name any more... I have even let my name get itself lost. It doesn't fit me anymore than I fit in this world. I'm the only they call God's Only Mistake. There is no heaven for me when I'm locked behind the gates of hell.
Categories: Band Centric
Characters: None
Genres: Drama
Story Type: None
Warnings: Self-Harm
Series: NonePublished: 07/01/2005 - Updated:07/07/2005