Real name: MerelMURDER
Member Since: 03/28/2005
Last Login: Unavailable
Skin: Revival


I'm Merel [No you can't pronounce it ]

I'm sixteen, from the Netherlands,

I'm a vegetarian, I drink and smoke,

And that's all you need to know thus far.



  • My lip’s quivering as I glance in the mirror I stand before, looking into the reflection of my own eyes. I almost seem to be challenging myself as I look at my tear filled optics, going over my plan again and again.
    Written for Janne (a.k.a. BenjisMadeGirl)

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Suicide, Self-Harm
    Series: None
    Reviews: 3
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1035
    Read Count: 122
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 09/17/2005 - Updated:09/17/2005
  • Ever since I first lay my eyes on you, I know that we were meant to be. That some day, you'd tell me how much I mean to you, and that I'm the only one. But now, I'm not sure if it's all worth it...

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Billy
    Genres: Angst, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 26
    Completed: No
    Word count: 5075
    Read Count: 319
    Chapters: 4
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    Published: 08/19/2005 - Updated:09/03/2005
  • I never meant to hurt you, I never did... But when you spoke in such a cold, harsh tone, denying everything we once had, something snapped. How could you say that? I always tried to be good to you. I forgave you for everything you did wrong. Always was I there for you whenever you’d call for me in your dreams, I was there to whisper soothing words.
    But it wasn’t enough, was it? It was never enough.
    I was never enough.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Billy
    Genres: Angst
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Violence, Suicide
    Series: None
    Reviews: 6
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1618
    Read Count: 63
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 07/26/2005 - Updated:07/26/2005