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IN MEMORY OF JUSTIN ANDERSON
1987-2005
AND TREVER ANDERSON
1986-2005

IN MEMORY OF CHARLIE AYERS
1942-2005

If roses grow in heaven. Lord please pick a bunch for me. Place them in dear Justin, Trever, and Charlie's arms. And tell them they're from me.
R.I.P.

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A million words would not bring you back, i know, because i've tried...neither would a million tears. i know, because i've cried.

the slowest form of suicide:
Don't pull the knife out of my chest
it slows the bleeding of my broken heart
i can see you in the mirror
your eyes looking me over
they're laughing at the pain visible in my face
these tears burn my cheeks
oh the tangled webs we weave
the pain that we create
just for our own little game
did you love me?
did you love me?
was this just a game?
was this just a game?
tell me what i did wrong
cuz i feel like this is all my fault
so many pieces
so many pieces
can't put them back together
i cut my finger
tell me what i did wrong
tell me what i did wrong
cuz i need to know
so i can go
knowing that it wasn't my fault
that i was treated this way
oh the pain
oh the pain
don't tell me this was just a game
i can't die this way
you'd rather hurt someone else than hurt yourself
oh the selfishness of those who never felt
tell me i didn't die without a cause
tell me i didn't die just because
tell me i died for love
i didn't die just because
i didn't die just because
i died for love
love killed me
the slowest form of suicide
the burning pain inside
don't cry for me
don't cry for me
because i already have
i cried for you too
i cried for you too
you don't deserve these tears
the asshole acts of others
foolish and naive
i'm the fool
i'm the fool
i believed
that we had something
i was terribly mistaken
i was terribly mistaken
we were far from it
we were far from it
this was just to make you feel of importance
i have nothing to lose
because i never had anything to



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    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 8
    Completed: No
    Word count: 2929
    Read Count: 96
    Chapters: 2
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    Published: 01/21/2005 - Updated:11/28/2005
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    Characters: Joel/OFC
    Genres: Drama, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Violence
    Series: None
    Reviews: 10
    Completed: No
    Word count: 6692
    Read Count: 114
    Chapters: 3
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    Published: 04/02/2005 - Updated:11/11/2005
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    Characters: Joel/OFC
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 29
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 9294
    Read Count: 397
    Chapters: 7
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    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: None
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 31
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 22443
    Read Count: 511
    Chapters: 10
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    Published: 01/19/2005 - Updated:02/05/2005
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    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 4
    Completed: No
    Word count: 3128
    Read Count: 83
    Chapters: 2
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    Categories: MSTs (deprecated)
    Characters: None
    Genres: Comedy
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 6
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 694
    Read Count: 125
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 01/22/2005 - Updated:01/22/2005
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    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: None
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 3
    Completed: No
    Word count: 8295
    Read Count: 113
    Chapters: 3
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