BenjisMadeGirl
Real name: Janne
Member Since: 05/29/2005
Last Login: Unavailable
Skin: Revival

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Suicidal Thoughts

Likes:
Music, my friends, playing the guitar, punk boys, being left alone, writing, sugar, eyeliner, black bracelets, Good Charlotte, horror movies, coke, piercings (have one in my lip)tattoos, concerts, darkness, thunder, red bull,

Dislikes:
People calling me a poser, people calling me a goth, people talking trash about Good Charlotte, labeling, being in a crowded shop, sluts, writers block, bad hair days, understanding boys humor

Favourite music:
Good Charlotte, Mest, Rammstein, Sum41, Jimmy Eat World, Bowling For Soup, Papa Roach, Simple Plan, NOFX, Atreyu, Metallica, Green Day, Nirvana, Bloc Party, System Of A Down, Sublime, Dead Kennedys, Modest Mouse, Raised Fist, Fountains of Wayne, Dashboard Confessionals, Bad Religon, God Smack, Alien Ant Farm, Aerosmith, The Offspring, The All-American Rejects, The Vandals, Relient K, The Killers, Weezer, The Used, The Exploited, The Clash, The Ramones, The Casualties, The Transplants, The Smiths, The Sex Pistols, Tenacious D, Taking Back Sunday, Burning Brides, MxPx, My Chemical Romance, Fall Out Boy, Avenged Sevenfold, Eminem, His Infernal Majesty, Placebo, The Stillers, Breaking Benjamin, N*E*R*D, Jaa9 & Onkl P, Gatas Parlament, Karpe Diem, Paperboys, El Caco, Hoobastank, Minor Threat, Morrisey, New Found Glory, Live, Limp Bizkit, Mc Hammer, Kid Rock, Foo Fighters, AFI, Audioslave, Counting Crows, KoRn, Rancid, Yellowcard, 3 Doors Down, Espen Lind, Kristian Valen, Daniel Powter, Gorillaz, etc.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
♥Benji♥

I'm a very complicated person. If you ever see me on the streets with my friends you'll most likely think of me as violent. And I really am. I'm not gonna deny that.

I'm often emo as hell, rarely smile and when I do, most likely mockingly. I do not smile. Throughout all my life I never smiled without a reason, I don't want people to think I'm happy. Smiling without a reason makes you look stupid.

I often need help from a professional, and that is another one of the reasons I have few friends. They think I'm going to seriously hurt them, and I don't really correct their idea of me. I don't want more friends. I am happy with the few, close ones I have.

I like to think of life as one huge adventure, that can end at any time or continue going. I'd like to take the chances I'm given, but there is two things that stop me from taking most. My parents don't want me to explore where I want to. They want me to go 'somewhere safe'. Yet in all the places I've been with them, you can never be safe.

Being denied taking drumming lessons, however, is one of the things that disappoints me the most. For one thing, I get constantly yelled at for not wanting to take up an instrument, and as soon as I suggest drumming, I get yelled at again for not taking up an instrument they want.

I show my disappointment is a way that is stupid of me. I start hurting myself, or I take my anger out at someone. Often I don't think, don't think about calling a friend up to talk to them. I have quite a few friends who've held out with me for a long time, taking my mood swings and my violent side with grace, managing to calm me down and keeping me from doing something stupid. I have two people in general I would like to thank especially for doing this.

Merel and Hanna.

Thank you.

I owe you guys my life, my soul. I would take a bullet without blinking for the both of you. I love you both; and the day that my friendship with either of you breaks, will be my last day.

Image hosted by Photobucket.com
Johnny the Homicidal Maniac is my favourite cartoon. You can't not like him.

Movies/TV shows you should watch:
The Lost Boys
Ice Age
The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
Monty Python
The Emperor's New Groove
Finding Nemo
The Simpsons
Family Guy
Two and a Half Men
Yes, Dear
Scrubs

Image hosted by Photobucket.com



  • Sequel to Something Stupid Victims of Travis Mark would agree, if they could speak, that he was not a pleasant man. Killing people in the ways of history; following Jack the Ripper's patterns, killing people how they could have died in Pompeii, poisoning them. Surely this means trouble for his real target, and those who stand her close? And what happens when things get too heated for someone close to Hanna Bianchi?

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Drama, Suspense, Action, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Abuse, Violence
    Series: None
    Reviews: 24
    Completed: No
    Word count: 29349
    Read Count: 625
    Chapters: 13
    📘 🚩
    Published: 06/28/2005 - Updated:11/01/2005
  • He who sheds a man's blood, by man shall his blood be shed

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Billy
    Genres: None
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Suicide
    Series: None
    Reviews: 4
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1151
    Read Count: 86
    Chapters: 1
    📘 🚩
    Published: 09/14/2005 - Updated:09/14/2005
  • Itís a beautiful name, and itís constantly on my thoughts. I wish, I pray, I beg for it to disappear, but it sticks. Like some kind of super glue. I canít get it away; itís always there, making me have to be on constant guard.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Joel/OFC
    Genres: None
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 1
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1283
    Read Count: 142
    Chapters: 1
    📘 🚩
    Published: 09/08/2005 - Updated:09/10/2005
  • Benji is ill and falls asleep with the The Boondock Saints movie playing. He wakes up to find himself not where he fell asleep. Now trapped in the world of The Boondock Saints along with Josh and Joel; while Il Duce, Connor and Murph are trapped in his world. Their appearances have changed, but their minds have switched bodies. How will they get out of this mess?

    Categories: Band Centric
    Characters: None
    Genres: Drama, Suspense, Action, Comedy
    Story Type: Alternate Universe
    Warnings: Violence
    Series: None
    Reviews: 1
    Completed: No
    Word count: 859
    Read Count: 99
    Chapters: 1
    📘 🚩
    Published: 08/29/2005 - Updated:08/29/2005
  • Youíre too perfect, everything about you shines of a masterpiece. A masterpiece of God, like heís been carving out your every feature to make it as perfect as possible. But for you to exceed it? He must have been shocked, must have been proud.
    Letting go of the ones we love is never easy

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Paul/OFC
    Genres: None
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 2
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1416
    Read Count: 449
    Chapters: 1
    📘 🚩
    Published: 08/03/2005 - Updated:08/03/2005
  • Her hand feels so cold in mine, her small fingers unmoving. Itís enough to break me down. But I have to stay strong. I have to do so. For Sarah.

    Categories: Person Centric
    Characters: Benji
    Genres: Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 1
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1607
    Read Count: 462
    Chapters: 1
    📘 🚩
    Published: 08/01/2005 - Updated:08/01/2005
  • Merel thinks that no matter how close she is to Billy he'll never know her as more than 'Merel' or 'the girl he met at Warped'. Janne has decided to prove her wrong. Written for BillysRiotGirl

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Billy/OFC
    Genres: None
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 5
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 938
    Read Count: 116
    Chapters: 1
    📘 🚩
    Published: 07/25/2005 - Updated:07/25/2005
  • Okay, so here are stories I find on MSN groups. Read at own risk, and not responsible for IQ points dropping...

    Categories: MSTs (deprecated)
    Characters: None
    Genres: Comedy
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 23
    Completed: No
    Word count: 5359
    Read Count: 441
    Chapters: 4
    📘 🚩
    Published: 06/29/2005 - Updated:07/24/2005
  • When Hanna and Benji first met, Hanna hoped she was free from her past. But an innocent game changes all that quickly, and the past returns in form of someone she hoped never to meet again...

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Violence
    Series: None
    Reviews: 71
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 18758
    Read Count: 2063
    Chapters: 13
    📘 🚩
    Published: 06/02/2005 - Updated:06/18/2005
  • Pierre plays different pranks on people, and people have turned into ghetto gay boys.

    Categories: MSTs (deprecated)
    Characters: None
    Genres: Comedy
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 15
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 959
    Read Count: 224
    Chapters: 1
    📘 🚩
    Published: 06/16/2005 - Updated:06/16/2005
  • Iíd like to say that I did not take my life without reason. I am not that dumb. My mind was suffering too much, it had already died, but my heart was unwilling to let go.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: None
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Self-Harm
    Series: None
    Reviews: 4
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1600
    Read Count: 118
    Chapters: 1
    📘 🚩
    Published: 05/29/2005 - Updated:05/29/2005
🔝