morbid dreams
Real name: Ryan
Member Since: 05/09/2005
Last Login: 01/20/2016
Skin: Revival

-My names Jamie, but some people prefer to call me Ryan, the choice is up to you.
-I'm 24. (January 27, 1986)
-Music is my everything.
-Ozzfest 2005 (July 30, 2005) was probably the best day of my life.
-Cross that, December 10, 2005 was the day I had my little boy nicholas, and it was by far better!
-My friends are my family, my family is my family, you fuk with one, your fuking with both.
-I am a reformed cutter. Meaning= I've been cut free for 4 and a half years, and counting.
-I love Build-a-Bear's.
-Life Goal- Be a full-time staff writer for Alternative Press Magazine.
-I love cars. I don't know alot about them, but the prettier and faster they are, the more I like 'em.
-My penname is from my best friends old screen name. (Thanks Justin.)
-I don't hang out with girls. I'm a tom-boy, that dresses cute, and wears make-up.
-I Smoke Cigarettes(Kool Milds)
-I have three piercings. Nose, Tongue, and Belly-Button. They were all presents. (Unfortunatly my nose ring got ripped out of my face during a very intense Tequila drinking contest)(Now my tongue, and belly button are gone now too. Sad!)
-I have a tattoo of a shamrock under my bellybutton. It was a bad idea, only because it doesnt look as good anymoe, after being pregnant, but its still cute! (update!! just got Nicholas' name in a star on my back!!)
-My first toy was a Tonka Truck.

Bands that have recent play in my CD player:
:: Alkaline Trio :: The 69 Eyes :: Blink 182 :: Slipknot :: Cradle Of Filth ::NoFX :: Rise Against :: Close To Home :: Black Label Society :: Avenged Sevenfold :: The Used :: Ozzy Osbourne :: Metallica :: System Of A Down :: Guns n Roses :: Marilyn Manson :: Rob Zombie :: HIM :: Disturbed :: Godsmack :: All American Rejects :: Kings of Leon :: Dropkick Murphys :: The Offspring :: Billy Boy On Poison ::

::I keep telling everyone that I will stop being such a slacker, and I will actually get on here and post more. So far, I'm a slacker, and a liar. I'm going to stop saying I'm going to do things and just do them. Thanks for coming and checking out my stoies, it means a lot to me -Jamie::

-Another Note From Me: My story "When All Else Fails" some how got deleted from the site. According to either Christine or Tracy it was probably a database error becuase some other stories have come up missing as well. So, the point it number 1- I lost all of my reviews... and number 2- I'm going to repost the whole damn thing. Anyone who reviewed before it went into the gutter thank you guys soooo much, I loved all of the reviews, and I hope you keep checking back to see when I get the new chapters out! - Nov, 27.
**Update -- I'm going to start submitting a complete re-write of "When All Else Fails" pretty soon. Plot will be similar but a lot will be changed... if you liked the original I can promise you will love the rewrite.** Dec. 11



  • So you think you know what it's like to be friends with "Rock Stars". Everything is a party, thetre is always laughing, and everyone gets along, right? Nope, sorry you are wrong. This is my story, and what it is really like to be friends with "Rock Stars".

    Categories: Het Pairings, Band Centric
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Comedy, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Drug Use, Self-Harm
    Series: None
    Reviews: 32
    Completed: No
    Word count: 23249
    Read Count: 3397
    Chapters: 14
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    Published: 03/28/2007 - Updated:03/21/2011
  • *Sequel To Prove It To The World.*

    Benji, I know youíre probably thinking what the hell I was thinking leaving Maddy with you. Itís actually a simple answer. She deserves to know her father, and you deserve to know your daughter. Benj, I trust you. I trust you with everything I have, and thatís her.

    Categories: Band Centric
    Characters: None
    Genres: Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Abuse
    Series: None
    Reviews: 7
    Completed: No
    Word count: 2094
    Read Count: 392
    Chapters: 3
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    Published: 08/25/2005 - Updated:08/24/2006
  • Blair is at Midnight Mass with her family, and she runs into the guy shes had a crush on for years.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Joel/OFC
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 3
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1892
    Read Count: 148
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 08/07/2006 - Updated:08/07/2006
  • Joel, I canít do this anymore. I canít make these small, pointless conversations. Joel, Snicker doodle, I canít go much longer without telling you thisÖ Iíve fallen for you. I love you.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Joel/OFC
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 12
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1051
    Read Count: 122
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 11/24/2005 - Updated:11/24/2005
  • Benji and Joel stepped out of their car into the deep snow. Joel's eyes suddenly became sad. There were about twenty people gathered outside a very small church.

    Categories: Band Centric
    Characters: None
    Genres: None
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 3
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 586
    Read Count: 307
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 08/10/2005 - Updated:08/10/2005
  • Emily is moving away from the place she's called home for 8 months. Will she be strong enough to live 5,000 miles away from her best friends?

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 6
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 7613
    Read Count: 1145
    Chapters: 7
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    Published: 05/20/2005 - Updated:07/25/2005
  • I want you to know this did not happen because of any of you. I let myself get to this point without asking for help, I was the one who did this to me. Donít beat yourself up about what I did. At this point there was nothing any of you could have gone to keep me alive.

    Categories: Band Centric
    Characters: None
    Genres: Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Suicide
    Series: None
    Reviews: 0
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1044
    Read Count: 548
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 07/11/2005 - Updated:07/11/2005
  • I cannot believe it my day had finally come. I was going to be Mrs. Benjamin Madden in less than an hour. I feel like I had been waiting for this my whole life, even though it had only been five years since I met Benji.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 3
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 2903
    Read Count: 127
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 07/06/2005 - Updated:07/06/2005
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