lostmyname
Real name: Jessica
Member Since: 02/05/2005
Last Login: 11/24/2014
Skin: Revival


Hi, my name is Jessica. I'm a singer/songwriter. As well as an avid fanfiction reader/writer. As time goes on, I've found myself losing interest in Good Charlotte as a band. I pretty much just write Twincest, though if you look down below you'll see a couple OFC and maybe a Billy/OMC lurking somewhere.

So, my Self-pimping recs?

Prostitution Doesn't Pay: AU. Pretty awesome if I can say so myself. I'm quite proud of this story and to anyone that cares- a sequel is in the works... somehwere.

What's Mine: You know as time goes on, that story just gets longer and longer and I think I'm scared to end it. It was my first story I was every proud of and now I read the first 5 chapters and I'm shaking my head and scrunching up my nose. But I'll tell you what... It's definitely worth reading... Not only did my writing improve throught the story, Benji and Joel's character get more developed. In the end, I'm happy to be the author.

The One Word Series: Read it. I love it. If you like angst, Sedated is the place for you. Joel has a mental disorder type of thing and Benji there for him every step of the way. Healing is more about the cute moments and Joel overcoming his demons.

Okay... I'm pround of all of my stories, but those are my fav's.

Other Recs.

Anything by imissmymind. She is an amazing writer- even though she's moved on from writing in this fandom, her stories where amazing. Go read all of her stuff. It's pretty much Twincentric, but the emotions and just UGH! she's amazing.

Adrift's Instability is- amazing. Warning WIP. It's so long, I'm lost count of what chapter she's on. But it's awesome. Every chapter leaves you begging for the next and the way she explains stuff, I dunno. I love her style. Go read her stories.

What would I do with iluvmybenji? Rachel is my best friend in real life and she writes materpieces all the time that go unnoticed. Honestly go read Cancer. Especially if you liked the depression of Sedated, Cancer will certainly hit the spot. Middle Class Trash is pretty cool to. I named it. Go read all her stuff. Her syle is awesome and she has no standards for her writing so everything is really cool and different.

Rachel and I have a couple of stories together. They're the funny ones with all the lines that make you crack up. Honestly, if you're in a shit mood, go really "Bitch Please, Whore is a Compliment" and I don't think depressed could be in your vocabulary. But if it still is, just go read the last chapter of Sedated and while writing that I talked myself out of depression. Enjoy.

Love. Your. Life. PEACE!


So... BrokenLovsucks on AIM...and my email is BrokenLovesucks@yahoo.com easy eh? Later**



  • Joel's finally taken a step outside. The sun is bright, the birds are chirping. It's absolutely beautiful. So how come he still feels broken?

    Sequel to Sedated.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: One Word
    Reviews: 73
    Completed: No
    Word count: 17029
    Read Count: 3265
    Chapters: 18
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    Published: 09/07/2007 - Updated:02/14/2010
  • What if Benji and Joel we're cheerleaders?
    Dare I say more?

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Comedy, Drama, Fantasy, Romance
    Story Type: Alternate Universe
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 36
    Completed: No
    Word count: 15713
    Read Count: 835
    Chapters: 7
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    Published: 09/13/2008 - Updated:02/12/2010
  • Benj and Joel break up. Joel leaves and becomes famous. Joel comes back months later. Benji isn't doing good.

    Joel thought it was over... but its not.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 101
    Completed: No
    Word count: 47259
    Read Count: 9275
    Chapters: 25
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    Published: 10/28/2006 - Updated:10/18/2009
  • Joel left Benji to have a family. It's been two years since they've spoken and now Joel realizes he wants his brother back. Instead of acting upon his desires, he disappears from the world. When he finally comes to his senses, is it too late?

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 4
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1856
    Read Count: 212
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 11/04/2008 - Updated:11/05/2008
  • Two rich twin brothers... what could go wrong? Um, Tony...

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Underage Sex
    Series: None
    Reviews: 44
    Completed: No
    Word count: 31008
    Read Count: 2199
    Chapters: 8
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    Published: 06/21/2007 - Updated:08/21/2008
  • Joel crushes on Benji… in epic proportions. The story takes place during their senior year of high school. I know… I’m so creative. Anyways, the whole world is… Wait, no, better than that, the entire universe is working against him. Can they even manage to get together or will evil scheming bitches keep them apart? Who knows? You gotta read it. It’s like a mystery.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama, Suspense
    Story Type: Alternate Universe
    Warnings: Abuse, Drug Use, Underage Sex
    Series: None
    Reviews: 27
    Completed: No
    Word count: 34166
    Read Count: 931
    Chapters: 6
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    Published: 06/19/2008 - Updated:08/16/2008
  • I was listening to ‘Never Enough,’ by the Cure and it just reminded me that this story was sitting in some dusty old file on this computer. Joel’s seems happy. He’s adopted a baby with his boyfriend and he’s living the life. Thank god Benji’s always there when he needs him.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 28
    Completed: No
    Word count: 25572
    Read Count: 1336
    Chapters: 6
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    Published: 08/24/2007 - Updated:06/15/2008
  • Joel falls for his foster sister while shooting a reality TV show. He really falls for her...but she thinks it's a plot for the show. When the show ends what happens to their relationship. There's more to it but you'll just have to read it to find out.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Joel/OFC
    Genres: Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Drug Use
    Series: None
    Reviews: 16
    Completed: No
    Word count: 8981
    Read Count: 364
    Chapters: 4
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    Published: 08/07/2005 - Updated:04/25/2008
  • Benji is a prostitute living in the city. Joel is a family slut stuck living wherever his father makes him go. One day their paths collide showing how intertwined their lives already have been without them knowing and how intertwined their lives could be.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: None
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Abuse, Rape, Underage Sex, Violence
    Series: None
    Reviews: 31
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 24719
    Read Count: 1906
    Chapters: 5
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    Published: 01/15/2007 - Updated:12/28/2007
  • Love sure, but Benji and Joel had no clue what they had gotten themselves into.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/OFC, Joel/OFC
    Genres: Comedy, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Drug Use
    Series: None
    Reviews: 8
    Completed: No
    Word count: 5359
    Read Count: 375
    Chapters: 2
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    Published: 07/29/2007 - Updated:09/13/2007
  • This is totally based on the song "The Approaching Curve" by Rise Against.

    I squint my eyes ahead at this one turn in the highway. It’s this seventy-five degree turn that has warning signs starting miles back. I look at my twin.

    He never slows down.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 7
    Completed: No
    Word count: 4720
    Read Count: 344
    Chapters: 2
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    Published: 11/25/2006 - Updated:09/02/2007
  • Joel is insane. He's like a car crash waiting to happen... If only he could leave his house.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama, Tragedy
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Abuse, Self-Harm, Torture, Violence
    Series: One Word
    Reviews: 53
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 11475
    Read Count: 4533
    Chapters: 11
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    Published: 03/29/2007 - Updated:07/30/2007
  • Your in a different world. Human's are a rarity and twins are forbidden. You live in a Village where people hate your kind and have killed you off. Your in the last family left of humans. And you have a twin... What happens when someone finds out...

    Categories: Person Centric
    Characters: Benji, Joel
    Genres: Action, Angst, Drama, Horror, Suspense
    Story Type: Alternate Universe
    Warnings: Abuse, Violence
    Series: None
    Reviews: 16
    Completed: No
    Word count: 8072
    Read Count: 478
    Chapters: 4
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    Published: 08/04/2005 - Updated:06/09/2007
  • Punk, Inconsiderate, Ignorant, Rude… who would have thought I’d fall for him.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Billy/OMC
    Genres: Drama, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 1
    Completed: No
    Word count: 3324
    Read Count: 139
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 05/01/2007 - Updated:05/02/2007
  • Like the title doesn't give it away? The whole world finds about about Benji and Joel's secret relationship as lovers.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 30
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 9535
    Read Count: 2358
    Chapters: 9
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    Published: 10/04/2006 - Updated:12/27/2006
  • PART 1: Benji recieves a fan letter asking for sex on a boys 18th Birthday. Benji excepts not knowing that he's going to open doors to a shameful yet wonderful past that effects more than just himself.

    The story goes on with a plot that get so twisted... It's a fun story. I encourage you to read...

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: None
    Genres: Action, Angst, Drama, Romance, Suspense
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Underage Sex
    Series: None
    Reviews: 17
    Completed: No
    Word count: 9407
    Read Count: 1299
    Chapters: 4
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    Published: 07/29/2005 - Updated:11/21/2006
  • He was dying inside. I knew it, but chose to not to really do anything about it. I knew I should've done more, I knew I should've thought of some way to get him to stop. I didn't though. I didn't and thats why I have all these memories of his sad faces, and that look in his eyes... a longing for something I could never give him. I knew this was coming. In the back of my mind I must've known. I should've stopped it. Then I wouldn't have all these thoughts... But some are actually good. Believe it or not in Joel and I's relationship we had some great memories. Some funny times. Lots of heartache and pain...but we always made it through.

    Categories: Het Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama, Suspense, Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Abuse, Violence, Self-Harm, Drug Use
    Series: None
    Reviews: 3
    Completed: No
    Word count: 3716
    Read Count: 326
    Chapters: 2
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    Published: 10/22/2005 - Updated:10/27/2006
  • Benji is away in Maine leaving Joel all alone to wonder.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Romance
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: None
    Series: None
    Reviews: 11
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1206
    Read Count: 570
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 08/21/2006 - Updated:08/21/2006
  • I want to tell you I love you before I go. Before I decide it's time. Time for me to go to sleep. Not just any sleep though. The sleep where I don't wake up. I know I promised you I'd make it through this but I can't. I can't with what's going on.

    Categories: Slash Pairings
    Characters: Benji/Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Violence, Self-Harm, Drug Use
    Series: None
    Reviews: 9
    Completed: Yes
    Word count: 1147
    Read Count: 426
    Chapters: 1
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    Published: 08/10/2005 - Updated:08/10/2005
  • Benji and Joel's parents separated them when they were ten. Joel's finally given the chance to see Benji again when they're eighteen. This wouldn't be a story is there wasn't conflict.

    Categories: Person Centric
    Characters: Benji, Joel
    Genres: Angst, Drama
    Story Type: None
    Warnings: Abuse
    Series: None
    Reviews: 33
    Completed: No
    Word count: 10204
    Read Count: 958
    Chapters: 6
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    Published: 05/14/2005 - Updated:08/05/2005
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